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Showing posts with label insomnia. Show all posts
Showing posts with label insomnia. Show all posts

Monday, 6 July 2015

Pre-Surgery Consultation

07/06/15 - Quick update.  Please forgive my lack of finesse in writing today.  Got less than four hours sleep, as the anxiety of everything is starting to creep up on me, but here goes… Saw my oncologist today for my pre-surgery appointment.  Everything’s on track.  The bug bite from hell, though slowly healing (my foot’s still more swollen than usual), won’t have any impact on my surgery.  He’s also not worried about all those nodules that came up, because everyone has nodules throughout their body whether they have cancer or not, so they’ll watch them & if any get beyond a certain size, they’ll take further action.  Re: my concerns about the >25% round-cell component, he says that it does NOT change my current treatment plan, so he is not overly concerned about it at this point.

As for surgery itself, surprisingly, it’s only going to take two hours & he aims to remove my tumour (aka “the alien”) in one piece, which will reduce the chance of it spreading.  I’ll be in hospital for about a week, possibly even less - yes, LESS!  I juste hope they don’t try to push me out of there prematurely just to free up a bed.  They’ll also do toxicology reports at the time, which will take two weeks to come back, if memory serves right.

I will have some physio in hospital, but considering I’ll have stitches still healing, not sure how much that’ll entail, aside from wobbling & hobbling around very slowly!  Oh, and thank god, there’s no requirement for a skin graft, which is a relief. He’s expecting my recovery time to be about three months, so hopefully I’ll be done before my short-term disability runs out, cause otherwise I’ll be in for a substantial income drop if I have to go onto long-term disability.  So, that’s pretty much it.  I have a pre-surgery preparation appointment via phone tomorrow morning, as well, and on Thursday I have to call for my surgery time.  I, of course, forgot to ask my oncologist several other questions, despite writing numerous questions down!  But it doesn’t really help when you forget to write the question down in the first place!  :p  Damn it, I’m so tired right now, I forget the questions I forgot!  :p  Can’t even come up with a Placebo lyric to go along with this post!  :(  Zzzzzzz...

Monday, 11 May 2015

Ticket for the Train - Anywhere But Here!

05/11/15 - Wow, packing for 3.5 days in hospital is almost as nuts as packing for one of my Placebo treks!  Just substitute the concert tickets, t-shirts, boots & excitement with a  meds list, nighties, slippers & anxiety!  :p  I even have my obligatory tech for killing time, plus I'm STILL up packing & doing laundry at stupid o'clock JUST like one of my road trips!  Now if only one of the nurses looked like Brian Molko, I'd be all set!  ;)  Wish me luck!  3.5 days of overnight 24 hour  chemo, followed by the first two of 10 radiation sessions this week.  Someone give me a time machine,  so I can travel back to March & relive my last roadtrip instead!!!

*[NOTE : Post title inspired by lyrics from the song "Julien" by Placebo off their 2009 album Battle for the Sun.]

Wednesday, 15 April 2015

Asking for Answers.

04/15/15 - I think anyone who's ever gone through this journey of fighting cancer will tell you that it's an emotional roller coaster.  One day you'll be coping fine & get a lot done, other days, you'll barely be able to get out of bed or the house - and that's BEFORE your treatment even starts.  The latter totally applied to  me yesterday.  I stayed in my PJ's all day, barely got anything done & had to watch the season premier of Game of Thrones TREE times because I either couldn't retain anything due to lack of concentration or would dose off due to great difficulties sleeping over the past week.

Fortunately, the sunshine returned both literally & figuratively speaking today, and so today has  been a much better day.  Took the dogs for a walk right after I got up & then went to the dentist to get that out of the way while I'm still well enough to do it.  The walk, sunshine & seeing people who, for once, didn't poke me with a needle did me a world of good.  Still tired, but I'm feeling better able to cope for now...

I'm also feeling slightly less stressed after calling Healthlink today re: questions I had in preparation for my consultation & next batch of results this coming Monday.  As the nurse & I were chatting, she recommended a great website done by Alberta Healthcare that has good & ACCURATE information!  I'd also add it's EASY TO UNDERSTAND & is written in plain English.  :)

In particular, I've been wondering - or more aptly STRESSING - about my upcoming chemo & radiation therapy, as I had no idea what to expect.  The above mentioned site has answered a lot of questions, and although some of the answers aren't pretty, it still really put my mind at ease.  Here are links to the chemo & radiation sections:

Chemotherapy: https://myhealth.alberta.ca/health/pages/conditions.aspx?Hwid=tf3284
Radiation treatment: https://myhealth.alberta.ca/health/tests-treatments/pages/conditions.aspx?Hwid=hw206439

If the above links don't work, just go to https://myhealth.alberta.ca and type either "chemo" or "radiation" (without the quotes) in the search box found on the upper right corner, then click the first link that comes up in the search results.

Also, for those here in Canada either living with cancer or who have a loved one fighting the disease, I found this yesterday (one of the few things I managed to do!) @ the Canadian Cancer Society's website, where they talk about their free peer support program.  If the counselling through the hospital isn't free or covered by my insurance, I'll probably check this out.  Scratch that.  I *WILL DEFINITELY* check it out regardless.  I need all the help I can get right now!  I also plan to inquire tomorrow what sort of support my employer's *free* EAP (Employee Assistance Program) offers specifically for cancer patients.




*[NOTE: Post title inspired by the Placebo song "Ask for Answers" off their 1997 album "Without You I'm Nothing".]